Sunday, May 22, 2011

Pell-Mell Into the Spring Playtime


It's going to take a bit of adjusting to get used to these warm, sunny days. After a cold winter and a cool spring, 75 degrees feels like I can't breathe. A cool 11 o'clock breeze through the living room window that rustles the maple trees along the driveway feels like all the peaceful interlude for which I could ask on a Sunday night.


Congratulations on continuing to check this blog after such long absences over the past year - you are to be commended on your commitment to my literary efforts, bumbling as they are. I have bumped into enough of you out there to feel re-inspired to continue to write. The fact that this effort means something to you, means something to me. Please leave me a comment once in a while!



Well, the grace period is over (see last post to define "grace period".) We are pell-mell, tumble bumble into the spring work/play out in the yard. We have weeded, mulched, trimmed, planted (perennials, vegetables, herbs, annuals, trees!), transplanted, sprouted seeds, and mowed grass in the third gear of my Toro walk-behind mower, which is about the equivalent aerobic exercize of a 2 or 3 mile run. (I've even stirred up the year-old compost pile) All this in the wettest spring I can remember and with the most children I've ever had to take care of. I fall into bed exhausted, but it's a "happy" exhausted. I haven't had this much fun in a great while.



Our outdoor projects help us to learn about each other. Most of these projects start out in O's brain - she browses the catalogs, envisions the possibilities and orders the seeds and plants. Through conversation and looking over her shoulder, I soon get on board with the enthusiasm. After the seeds, plants, trees and mulch come, I work outside fiendishly in spare moments to bring all these visions to pass. While most of her ideas are brilliant and beautiful, I temper them with the practical aspects of cold reality and in the process of pouring myself into the said projects, begin to come up with ideas and alterations of my own. (wouldn't these trees look better over there?) These discussions and differences of opinion keep the conversation lively and the love warm - but perhaps this kind of ebb and flow of tension is what keeps our parents from being excited about planting their own gardens 30 years into the team effort. Be that as it may, I've seldom worked so hard, loved the earth so intimately, or tended so many plants as this spring.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Spring


wow. it is spring, at long last. the daphodils have bloomed and the tree buds have given the woods a red blush of promise. we're in the grace period; after the long uphill climb of winter we've leveled off and can enjoy the view and excitement, right before we plunge headlong down the other side in the craziness of all the work that will undoubtedly come as we attempt to tend our little acreage. I haven't been an adult long enough to know how to walk around our place without constantly thinking of things that need to be done. good grief! let me alone! the cells continue to divide, children grow long legs and our age comes quietly.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Observing the Little Guy

Observing the Little Guy
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tearing apart my kitchen
limb from limb
like Dionysus
(nothing can be sole or whole
that has not been rent)
boxes, bags, dishes, containers
things on the ground
pushing them around
"learning the use of my hands!"
mouth, hand, hand, hand
mouth, hand, hand, etc.
two hands together, clapping
pulling, pulling out
sounds! making the sound again
turning over, pulling again
wanting to tear apart
and remake the world!
touching, tasting
everything!
wanting to know
to understand!


Saturday, January 22, 2011

A Family

Although the hazards and pitfalls of raising a family are many - I doubt anything could quite take its place. Pictures help us realize this. When you see the faces of your children and wife all day everyday, its sometimes difficult for these visual intricacies to make impact on the pool of your brain. Its easy to forget to take pictures at all. Only later, upon reflection and when something is locked in the past forever, irretrievable, do these images of the everyday and ordinary take us to a greater emotional depth.
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Every once in a while I still run into someone who has stumbled across my blog for the first time - I'm like, "oh, yeah, that!" With a bit of embarrassment, with a bit of pride, with a bit of remorse. Writing for an audience can be pretentious; delusions of grandeur, and just plain delusions may be par for the course. A little bit of this and a little bit of that - "it is what it is" is a nice expression that comes to mind.
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for me it is a place to collect some of the debris, the driftwood, the leftovers of the mind, the heart - their pitiful scrambling about, their happy little jaunts, their storms - hopefully their storms; arranging these little pieces together in stacks and patterns, or just letting them fall where they will. How real is real? What is worth talking about? I don't really know. I guess its an exploration then - and here is my family - my pride and joy, my stability, my storm, and my occupation. (the woodpecker is just a visitor)

Saturday, January 15, 2011