Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Along the Way

along the way
.
along the way
we spied a trinket
embedded in the earth
and
scooping it up
it erupted light
and showered
fingers of music
.
we aquainted ourselves
with the miracle of birth
again, anew, afresh
the startling sensation
of family
of death, renewal
of the circles
time wraps around life
and into the tiny
fingernails
attached to seven pounds
of new fruit
new labor
new love
anouncing the beginning of
Nigel Yeats
April 24, 2010pictured here with his first cousin
Paige Brooklyn
age: 5 weeks

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

In Love With Trees


It's easy to fall in love with trees while strolling aimlessly about on a 1000-acre garden at the beginning of spring. That's what we decided to do for our last-chance get-away before our children outnumber us. (Longwood Gardens, PA) Like I told D, after this we won't have romance anymore. It'll just be arguing, macaroni & cheese and yelling at the kids from here on out. But if this really was our last fling - it was also our best. We soaked up acres of bloom and bud - slept in past 7 o'clock - and had a two-day uninterrupted conversation. We pretended to be first time parents while missing our children at home. I became reaquainted with my fascination with trees and bought a wonderful copy of A Natural History of North American Trees in which Donald Culross Peattie "writes about trees the way Thoreau writes about Walden Pond." We dreamt of the gardens in our future and wondered if heaven would be well-tended or wild. It was good to be in love and to love nature as much as we possibly could in one day, to "keep in the heart the journal nature keeps."
KEEP IN THE HEART THE JOURNAL - Conrad Aiken

Keep in the heart the journal nature keeps;
Mark down the limp nasturtium leaf with frost;
See that the hawthorn bough is ice-embossed,
And that the snail, in season, has his grief;
Design the winter on the window pane;
Admit pale sun through cobwebs left from autumn;
Remember summer when the flies are stilled;
Remember spring, when the cold spider sleeps.

Such diary, too, set down as this: the heart
Beat twice or thrice this day for no good reason;
For friends and sweethearts dead before their season;
For wisdom come too late, and come to naught.
Put down "the hand that shakes," "the eye that glazes";
The "step that falters betwixt thence and hence";
Observe that hips and haws burn brightest red
When the North Pole and sun are most apart.

Note that the moon is here, as cold as ever,
With ages on her face, and ice and snow;
Such as the freezing mind alone can know,
When loves and hates are only twigs that shiver.
Add in a postscript that the rain is over,
The wind from southwest backing to the south,
Disasters all forgotten, hurts forgiven;
And that the North Star, altered, shines forever.

Then say: I was a part of nature's plans;
Knew her cold heart, for I was consciousness;
Came first to hate her, and at last to bless;
Believed in her; doubted; believed again.
My love the lichen had such roots as I,-
The snowflake was my father; I return,
After this interval of faith and question,
To nature's heart, in pain, as I began.

Friday, April 2, 2010

On Nest Building

I have 15 minutes for this blog: forgive me.
Mr. Bird here - I've been looking for a nesting site for the past 3 months and I'm not sure even now if I've found it. I'm not sure of the validity of signing years of our lives away just so we can claim a place of our own and yet we need a nest. I grow weary of playing the game of real estate buying - agents, appraisals, preapprovals and counteroffers. (I like listening to Alexi Murdoch much better.) I was determined to have a real nest by the time we hatch our third egg - but I don't know if we will. but even if we don't - we have real love: love that's come through the wash time after time with amazing resilience. we are, after all, only passing through - and in about 40 years (if I'm lucky) I'll be in a wooden box in the ground. (correction: in a concrete vault in order to comply with water table restrictions - I don't want to have any of my entrails leaking into your drinking water after all) I'll keep looking for that nest.